Messy, Grey & Random

mIszing ouT

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Misses alot of things. Caregroup, fellowship, evanglise, sowing, fun, somethimes even service.... I misses all time I can spend.... This past week I have been working, one straight in a row, expect for saturday. A lot of thing happen in my work place, people back stabbing people, complaining all over. I'm always the one been stuck in the middle, without knowing why. Hahaha but I still love all the happening...becaause I believe that it's a moulding process to prepare me to eternal life. How have U all been my dear SPians...misses U all!!!

Ha... I want to proclaim His All, His greatness....

I Love U Jesus...
I Love my family
I love all my Brother & sister
I love my unit
I love my spiritual family
I love my leaders
I love all the special things & creation all around
I love my shepherd....

I loveeeeeeeee UUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!

I went off @ 6:31 PM

can't sleep

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Early Early!!! I simply can't get to sleep, yet still feeling awake & refresh. This past few days, it always happen, I will only doze off at 6plus or 7plus. Dunno why, hahha!!! Today i just couldn't sleep, so decided to come to SP early in the morning, to walk around & use computer... ha to some may feel weird why I always come to SP to use comp, the reason being is I do have have a computer at home for the past 3yrs. Quite long have not been that early I came to SP, morning is rather quiet, cooling & fresh!! And feel rather different!! Watching the people walking here & there, observing what they are doing..

Yesterday something happen, it touches me & rather spur me up. I do not what to said, just simply could not utter a words...A card that so simple with a few short sentence, that means alot & the affirmation. ThanK U bro!!! Finally got a part time job, but mostly is night shift. Going get affect with my timing with ministry. Thinking it might get clash. I'm going to replan my time plan again, ha hope it helps!!!

Seeing life that transform daily is a joy & blessing & encouragement to each other!!! Looking back at the stages of life changes is really amazing. God mould us step by step, little by little, seems like a bit slow, turning out to be wow!! God will use your past & present character, talents for a greater future. Paul is a very good example. Somehow I'm reminded again about not taking the Lord for granted. Usually it's easy to take God protection for granted. When things goes well & we get so use to, that we seldom take notice. (The home we are shelter with, the daily transport we took, the surrounding, water for the daily purposes.......etc...). Normally we only give thanks when something happen or people around....What have been giving you good service?? What have been working well recently??? Have you give thanks to what U have??? Remember to thank God for these quiet blessing. Encourage U to give thanks....All this is a blessing too!!

Psalm 26:7 --That I may proclaim with the voice of thanksgiving, and tell of all Your wondrous works.

I went off @ 10:36 AM

Dwell

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Today was a fruitful day... tell you all more about some happening in my family. Things have been the same since 2 months ago. Till this time where my younger sis grad and start looking for job. She start asking me alot of question, " hey why aren't you scare during interview" , " why won't find it difficult to mix around with new people"...why here & there!!! But one thing I truly glad & happy is, I got this chance to share my faith with her... Haha.. I believe a seed is already plant in her, believe God will grow it & draw her back to him. This actually bring our relationship ever closer. Ha one more thing that happen is, our family lunch together. This is the 1st time where such outing is plan other than reunion dinner. This time round my brother got go, but one thing I'm reallty glad about is.. He will start asking my sis things about me..which never happen before. Can see that after he enter ploy things slightly change...One thing I truly the work of God is burn in my family. Hoping to see their salvation soon... Yeahhhhhhh!!!! Hahahaaha Love U my sis & bro

Yesterday got a good chat with a bro... talk about lots of thing!!! There's one topic we discuss is on end time, terrorism, war....Recent news there's alot of happening around the world, global warming, bombing, people got kill....etc... I start thinking of what happen in the world now. I been wondering what happen if there's no law & people using their own freedom to do whatever they want. Freedom...what's that??? Freedom to abuse? Freedom to do what ever U want?? I'm really glad I found my true freedom...& I start apprectiate the laws & rule given...expect for some hahhha!!! Laws are designed to guide all people toward a lifestyle that are healthy, up right....and devoted to God. It is to protect us & he love the world so so much. I been reminded on obeying.....obeying the words of God, the commandment....!!! Seems hard...lets do it hand in hand...His presence is what I long for...His love that never fails.... I'm reallly really felt bless to be in His family, under His protection....

God so Loved

Chorus:
God so loved the world
That he gave his one and only son
That who so ever believes in him
Will not perish but have everlasting life

Verse 2:
I try so hard to find the words to say
To let you know how great is this God to whom I pray
Nothing can, nor ever, will compare
To the peace that flows in your soul
When He is living there
Oh, I know
You've been through so much
It's hard to contemplate
Letting go
And reaching out for his trust
But I know the simple truth
That love is here for you
So take Him at His word
And see what He can do
Chorus
The promise is yours and mine
Take hold of His love for the rest of your life
But it's time to take a step of faith
Be prepared for Jesus' love to carry you one way
Chorus
(God so loved the world) 4x
He gave his...
He gave his one and only son...
If you just believe
If you just believe
Love will set you free
He loves you so much
He loves you so much
Just believe
Just believe...

I went off @ 8:31 PM

dEvotional

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

There's so many things I want to give thanks to U Abba......Every single thing in my life. The daily providence, the love, the words, My family, everyone in my life...so much to give thanks... U know i feel so bless to experience the good & bad. Experiencing what others may not experience.

Today devotional was great... I can said every devotional time spend with him is truly a great. I ask alot recently...may sound simple yet...Is simple thinking good or bad?? Asking too much is it a bad thing?? Expressing is it bad thing??? Is emotion the root issue to failure???..... Each time I ask, He never fail to answer my question during the time spending with him.. I'm a step closer to Him each day... I really want to do more for You...For you for you.... Thanks for the comfort Abba...My tears just flow down, when out of sudden I heard this worship " You are My All in All"..right after I got spoke of Psalm 73:23-24...

Recently I have been slacking at home...Been going around looking for temp job, my suitation now can said to be quite bad yet not...This period of time, straits times, dictionary, books & bible is my good friends. Ha to said the truth, I took quite sometime to adapt reading newspaper, partly is because the words is bit small, and i'm not a person who love reading. Now I begin to start love reading....without fail I will read..ha... Now i love the World section... hate the sports. Haha.. because I don't really like soccer!!! Maybe will slowly love it hahha...

LOve U all!!!!

I went off @ 8:55 PM

PRAY

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

I simply love the starbucks time with God. I truly realize the beauty & meaning of true QT. Recently I'm starting a new habit to spend time with with HIM, not because I have to but because I want to. Making the start & end with him. Sound simple yet difficult to keep on track. Believe a lot of you encounter it too...

4 cOmmon problem blocking our way to have a quatily time spend with the most precious one

1. Problem of discipline

2. Problem of dry spells

3. Problem of Concentration

4.Problem of discouragement

Never hurry...Hurry is the death of prayer.
Dropping your quiet time is usually the 1st step in spiritual backsliding.
Don't miss the time spending with God. Do it slowly no hurry. Pray!!!!

P-Praise the Lord

R-Repent of your sins

A-Ask yourself & others

Y-Yield yourself to God

It's important to be specific in prayer..... Hope you will truly appreciate the true meaning of QT!!

Love U Lord!!!

I went off @ 6:21 PM

feast

Friday, May 04, 2007

Morning Feast @ Edmund place

~dOn't spill oUt~ tOO muCh food

hMMmm...wHat to eat??

Looking stuNt or tOo blur??

aCting cute...

sTop stuffing food to Me..soB

I went off @ 3:37 PM

loVe

In SP main library now...feeling rather tired!!! In the morning walk ard going for interview. Haha... Hopefully will get a job soon. Yesterday night, was fill with thoughts. Have U experience before, when U are talking to someone, listening to songs, watching tv, walking down the street suddenly saw a adverisment...etc...then out of the sudden some words or things is so catchy. It seems like it's just decicated to U, to comfort, to speak...Etc..!!! Is there time, your tears just flow, yet at that point U don't feel like crying nor feel sad???? Believe it sound familar to some of U, yeah!! Haha..

Ytd I was watching TV as i tune the channel, just nice the show " Find me a singaporean" just started. I stop at the channel & watch. This is my 1st time watching, though many episode has pass!! Belinda Lee the host, will go to places around the world,looking for singaporean. The place where is not many Singaporean will go. Ytd it was about a Singaporean -Yan Lan- whom is staying in Kenya, not in the city but in a village. She's staying in Rafiki village, a rural area with 1000 of slum near by. A village with 75 orphans staying together, learning & fun. Yan Lan came to Rafiki after a calling from the Lord, leaving behind her friends, family, her comfort, her job to an unfamilar place. Obey & she go. Being a woman & a totally different culture & environment, it's rather tough. She's the only asia there. Putting herself down to blend into.Believe God have watch over her through this few years. I feel a strong passion in her, wanting to fight the right for every children to live in a right way. She is not just the chief in the village, but she act as a mother, a teacher, a friend. She also have to go to the court here & there to fight for the custody for the children. In the show, I truly see God have guided her in every ways. Her strong fighting spirit & faith inspire me. There's one part, the kenyans was worshipping & prasing god. My tears just flow, i felt their sincerely, their desire for God.Believe Holy spirit is stirring in my heart. I salute to U sister Yan Lan & all the missionary. I believe God will use and expand U in a even greater measure. After watching a lot of thoughts came into my mind...I start asking God, Is there something U r telling me? Almost all the 5W & H got out. Hahaa... I got the aNswer... Is for Me to know & for U to find out!!!!!!!!

To me, ytd means very special. I can said it's a plan for me to watch, not just it's the country I wanna go, the content means alot. For a word from God cannot be compare to a 1000 word from man.

Romans 8:28 == We know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

I went off @ 3:25 PM

gOOd yet not

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Sad.........

Pain.......

I believe it will soon be over.

Lord my God, I pray U will help to be an assured being. Someone who is so sure of You = that I become more sure of myself. All this i ask in cHrist precious name. Amen.

I went off @ 6:09 PM